“She’s Not A Monster” is a brief and shallow look at my experience with disordered eating. This piece came about after I felt like I needed a way to get my feelings and experiences out.

By an Anonymous Author

She’s not a monster

Not some devil on my shoulder

Not some disfigured creature who wishes me harm

Who whispers curses and promises into my ear

No

How dramatic

And easy

That would be

Because really

She’s me

She is me who pokes me

She is me who laughs at me

She is me who tells me I’m not good enough

She is me who is always happy

She is me who is always loved

She taunts me

With empty promises

“Just a little farther,”

She lies

“You’ll be so happy.”

She is cruel

But she says she has my best interests at heart

It is foolish that I believe her

Because she is heartless